Since Scott is in Poland right now, he sent me to the corporate fireworks thing in Bozeman where they teach you how to set up a fireworks stand and sell fireworks. As a bonus, my sister lives in Bozeman so I got to hang out with her for a day. She came with me to the incredibly over-long seminar on fireworks, and the great product demonstration ending the event. So from five to eight we learned to face the shelves, be nice to customers, suggest things to buy, and the "no dud" guarantee. She taught me some chemistry and I taught her some Russian. Indeed, we are a family of nerds.

It's been so long since I have had quality time with her, it was almost like getting to know her again. I never knew she was into video games, but what coud you expect from the influence of two older brothers. We played Halo 2 on XBox Live until late at night.

I have been thinking about relationships recently. With the inclusion of Goodbye by Plankeye on the farewell to tot CD, I have been listening to the lyrics again. Here they are:
It's difficult to say goodbye after only one life
The rain will fall down replenishing all of our broken dreams
And this burning tree that's withering will bloom again
Would you believe?

Goodbye, goodbye
Walk away it's time to say goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye
Walk away it's hard to say goodbye

Now all that's left
Pictures on the walls
Memories and stories that are told
The more often told the bigger they get
Create a legacy lest we forget

Goodbye, goodbye
Walk away it's time to say goodbye

No longer can I hold onto this defeated change in heart
I swear
It's time to sing "fare thee well" to life as we know it

My voice it will be,
You know I will be,
Yes it will be still

Something woke me up in the midst of dream and fantasy
Halfway there but He always fills my cup
And He lifts me up oh how He lifts me up

Goodbye, goodbye
Walk away it's time to say goodbye

I never took the time
To stop and realize
That death takes many forms
Even while alive

Those are all really good, but the one that hits me is the very last, "I never took the time to stop and realize, that death takes many forms even while alive." I wonder what it would be like to live the rest of life without regrets. I know that kind of sounds cliche, but when I really think about it, it looks like quite a Godly life, for what greater contentment could I have than fulfilling the task God has set before me. I know it's in his plan for my life to love those closest to me as well as the world. What hurts is when you know you have not loved with the fullness He has given you, and it's too late. It still hurts when you say goodbye, but parting really looses it sting if you know you have loved with all your heart.

"Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?" 1 Corinthians 15:55

2 comments:

ed said...

Lance,

I'd never heard this song until you suggested it for the Goodbye CD. It sounds kind of corny to say this, but it moves me in ways I can't explain. The reasons you mentioned are certainly true for me, but it's almost just the strain in his voice that reminds me of a particular goodbye in my life. Anyway, it was the oddest thing. I was sleeping at work (yes, I'm supposed to) the other night when I bolted awake with a line from this song screaming in my ear. Of all things, it was the "Something woke me up" line. I've never been awakened by a song in my head before--and the words so fitting...Hmm.

lance said...

Ed, that is a moving song. I've never been awakened by a song in my head, but those are the perfect lines to do it. Awesome.